I love my life. My husband and our little family of dog and cat are so wonderful. This crushing loneliness is something I'm going to have to overcome. I just don't know how. Being out with others just makes me feel worse, since I rarely do things socially that don't involve him, and that just reminds me that he's not there.
I don't think there's any way to help this, and I don't know if I'd want to help it if there was a way.
I just want my dream of the first night back. So that I can believe that he's not gone, even if it's only for a moment.